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I had my veins tapped again today. I’ve been having the all time worst headaches of my entire life! Constant pressure, mixed with the Voo Doo dolls pains… and I think whoever has the voo doo doll is using an ice pick! Saturday night, it was so bad… it actually dropped me to my knees. Then I spent the next few hours with my head in the toilet.

Everyone keeps telling me,”you’ll be fine”…. because “you’re the strongest woman I know”. I wonder if I’d still look strong to them, if they knew I spent another Saturday night puking my guts out. God, I hate being the headliner for all these pity parties.

Yet, today my lab work was at it’s all time best since this whole thing came on. My prolactin is down to 27. Still too high…. but the lowest it’s been for me in years. My GP says I could be feeling PAIN due to the tumor bleeding, or dying. Now I get to fax/ send results to the specialists…. and they will again decide my fate. Perhaps they will want to do my “re-evaluation” earlier…. perhaps not until November when it’s scheduled. Perhaps they will want to take it out… perhaps they will tell me to “grin and bear it”. Perhaps I will be able to hold my tongue…. perhaps I won’t.

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