My 10th Wedding Anniversary

Filed under: Journal — Mrs. Smile at 4:30 pm on Tuesday, August 30, 2005
was GREAT! Went to Lake Tahoe for a few days. On a scale from 1 to 10 (10 being Unbelievably AWESOME) on how I felt... I ranked probably a 6 or 7, so it was a successful few days. I hadn't been there since before we got married and had forgotten
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I swear to god,

Filed under: Journal — Mrs. Smile at 7:38 pm on Saturday, August 20, 2005
someone must have a voo - doo doll of me somewhere... please leave me alone! Tonight I take my meds. Maybe tomorrow morning will be better. Smile

It’s only in my head

Filed under: Journal — Mrs. Smile at 1:34 pm on Friday, August 19, 2005
sharp shooting pains constant pressure blinding aching tears vomiting pain pain pain will it ever stop? Smile

The thermo nuclear hot season

Filed under: Journal — Mrs. Smile at 8:03 am on Wednesday, August 17, 2005
must be coming to a close. The cotton wood trees are just starting to show a hint of yellow in the leaves. Thank God. I think the days of 100 + degree heat are over. We haven't ran our AC at night for a week or so. It's nice
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Today is the 3rd anniversary

Filed under: Journal — Mrs. Smile at 5:34 am on Thursday, August 11, 2005
of my 39th birthday. I feel.... grateful. Grateful to have made it this far. It seems like every time I go to the doctor, according to them, I lose a decade (+/-) of my life's expectancy. I feel relieved. For weeks leading up to this day... do I represent myself as 41
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the night sky

Filed under: Journal — Mrs. Smile at 9:40 am on Tuesday, August 9, 2005
My husband called to me last night to come outside and look at the sky. It was UNBELIEVABLY BEAUTIFUL! The night sky looked as if there were some sort of celestial event happening. The stars looked so close you could reach out and grab one. The Milky Way was
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Worth the gamble

Filed under: Journal — Mrs. Smile at 4:48 pm on Sunday, August 7, 2005
I made a new friend. Sounds silly I realize.... but rarely do I leave my comfort zone anymore. With my current health hanging over my head, like a storm cloud ready to dump at any moment.... I always have the sense of "why start something I might not be able
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